I Want To Be Better Than I Am
by Chris on March 14th, 2013

My family has the flu.  Not just one of us, but all of us.  My brother insists we need to open some windows. We are all breathing the same infected air he says.  Who knows?  But I do know this, it's not fun.  We have our share of health issues, and with my son's weakened immune system, we seem to get more than our fair share of respiratory illnesses.  Three of us are regulars at the Allergist/Immunologist.  She has lots of recommendations for us, most of which we implement.  She always recommends sinus rinse for me.   (like the pic over there)

And I almost never do it consistently even though it helps immensely.  It's a little uncomfortable, it's a lot inconvenient.  And if I get stuffy enough or bothered enough by symptoms you don't want me to explain here in case you're snacking, I will use it, for a few days.  I get a little relief and then I quit. But the doctor tells me I should be doing it most all the time.  I don't usually tell her if I haven't been rinsing.  I'm sure she knows when she looks up my nose, but she doesn't say anything.

What's going on with this?  I want to be healthy.  It's a small cost to prevent some of the gunk that comes in.  I just don't do it.  I want to but I don't.  I want relief, easy relief.  But I don't want the discomfort that comes with working through to health. 

It's that way with a lot of things in my life.  I want to do the things that need to be done to prevent problems, but I find my way back to the path of least resistance often.  Exercise, eating better, discipline of kids, administrative tasks.  I tell my son, "Sometimes we have to do things we don't want to do now so we can do things we want to do later." 

There are areas that I do this.  More often than not, I am proactive, intentional, and preventative in relationships.  But in these other areas, not so much.  I want to be better than I am, but I'm not.  Who will save me from this?  Jesus will.  Not by doing my nasal rinse or treadmill time for me.  But by walking me into and through the process of healing, wholeness, health.  I am reminded of Paul's writing in Romans 7 in the Message (v23-25)

-- It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge. I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question? The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.

In the New International Version Paul calls himself a wretched man and asks "Who will save me from this?"

And the answer is Jesus.  When I find an incomplete place in my character, execution, or heart, I genuinely want it to be different...made well....saved.  But somewhere along the way I bought the lie that it was up to me to come up with the energy and the plan to make it better.  And even Paul the Apostle couldn't do it on his own.  I think Satan and God are both trying to get us to the same place, bring us to the same conclusion, "I can't do this!"  And while Satan does it to leave us there, God does it to bring us from there to a place of strength.  Paul says it this way in Corinthians 12

--He told me, My grace is enough; it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.

Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.

I love the phrase "Christ's strength moving in on my weakness."

I am not sure how to other than to state that like Paul, I can't do it on my own.  And wait for God to say "That's what I've been trying to tell you son, no let my strength, my sufficient grace move in on your weakness."

So Daddy, have it, Jesus save me.  Save me from worry over the multiple illnesses my son battles daily, save me from  worry over my health, save me from my disdain for administrative tasks, save me from my best-foot-forward posing, save me from trying to please people (dang, I really thought I was done with that one, but I'm not), save me from myself and the evil one.   And make your strength manifest in my weakness. 

You and I don't have to come up with all the effort to make our lives whole.  Jesus said in Luke 19 he came to seek and save that which was lost (NKJV).  And oh how much in our lives is lost.  Jesus wants to do it with us, for us, and through us.

Will we let him? I'm in what about you? Aren't you tired of trying to do it on your own?  I know I am....again.

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Kay Smith - March 15th, 2013 at 12:15 PM
Very nice.
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